By Mel Bossa
Quiet and imaginative, Derek O'Reilly spends a lot of time watching a movie in his head. His fiancé Nathan, aka "Mr. Alpha," wonders why Derek hasn't taken any interest in their wedding planning. Aunt Franhis spiritual guruwould like to know when her guilt-tripping nephew became some kind of kept boy. One evening, she drops Derek's childhood journal on his lap, forcing him to remember the name he's been trying to forget since he was eleven years old. Nicolai Lund.
Nick was Derek's neighborand first love.
Weeks before Derek's engagement party, a chance meeting with Nick catapults Derek into the past. Nick could flood Derek's stale existence like a blond tidal wave, but Nick isn't that sixteen-year-old rebel anymore. He's a man hardened by invisible scars.As Derek reads through his diary, Nick and Derek's powerful relationship sways between past and present, sweeping over their emotional landscape, revealing what they were, still are, and might yet be to each other.